'A silence hung in the air like secret loss.'
A silence......
Secret loss......
(Line from the novel-The god of small things)
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
The God of over expectations.
No! I am not proud at all-proud of not being a god fearing person. I hate to be so at the same time I love to be myself. To fear god I need to have faith in god. That means No Faith No Fear.
My faith in god has nothing to do with the book I am reading currently-The God of small things by Arundhati Roy. It is the Winner of the Booker Prize 1997. I wonder why I end with so much of expectations every time I start reading a new book. Books of my choice are not available in Dubai and I have recently started troubling my friends who visit India for vacation just to hunt for the books I am anxious to read. Mean of me right?
Without diverting from the topic, I don’t really feel interested in the book. Perhaps, it must be my over expectations or maybe the momentary excitement to read it. I remember reading the Autobiography of R.K.Narayan long back even when I was having my lunch or dinner of the day; it was like live journey through his life. On contrary I also feel that ‘The God of small things’ lacks the constant pull that I expected in every chapter I read till now. I can’t just let go the hope. After all, the book has won the Booker Prize and it can’t just be as what I think.
Alright! I accept I am having over-expectations.
My faith in god has nothing to do with the book I am reading currently-The God of small things by Arundhati Roy. It is the Winner of the Booker Prize 1997. I wonder why I end with so much of expectations every time I start reading a new book. Books of my choice are not available in Dubai and I have recently started troubling my friends who visit India for vacation just to hunt for the books I am anxious to read. Mean of me right?
Without diverting from the topic, I don’t really feel interested in the book. Perhaps, it must be my over expectations or maybe the momentary excitement to read it. I remember reading the Autobiography of R.K.Narayan long back even when I was having my lunch or dinner of the day; it was like live journey through his life. On contrary I also feel that ‘The God of small things’ lacks the constant pull that I expected in every chapter I read till now. I can’t just let go the hope. After all, the book has won the Booker Prize and it can’t just be as what I think.
Alright! I accept I am having over-expectations.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Beedi Jalai le
Does anyone know about something that’s a trend in the world of the proud mobile owners? A trend that can irritate the hell out me? Well, let me explain. Now I got few friends who have filmy songs set on their mobile numbers and each time I call them I could listen to:
‘Who is it? Don!’ and then the music beat start and sometimes ‘Aau sunau pyar ki ek kahani’
I get so irritated listening to it. Thanks to Etisalat that I never got to listen to that Omkara song.
Beedi jalai le, jigar se piya, jigar maa badi aag hai
Ah! Stop it or else the song is going to stick to my tongue and I am surely going hum the tune unknowingly the whole day.
‘Who is it? Don!’ and then the music beat start and sometimes ‘Aau sunau pyar ki ek kahani’
I get so irritated listening to it. Thanks to Etisalat that I never got to listen to that Omkara song.
Beedi jalai le, jigar se piya, jigar maa badi aag hai
Ah! Stop it or else the song is going to stick to my tongue and I am surely going hum the tune unknowingly the whole day.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Christmas in the air
Dubai is all set to welcome Santa Claus. Preparations have already started. Decorations & rich Christmas trees can be seen in every mall of the city. I have always wanted to enjoy the decorations for Christmas in the malls but never could really go out as often as I wanted to. But there is something special about it this year because the DSF- Dubai Shopping Festival is also coming up end of this month. It is definitely going to be a fun and I am all thrilled about the roller coasters, cotton candies, pavilions, shopping loads and loads, the special DSF offers/ discounts in all shopping malls and never the less the beauty of Dubai nights all decorated and sexy is beyond words. Muah! Can’t wait!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Few thoughts out of many
Every time I think of writing something for on blog I feel very lazy-sad-bored-silly and I wonder what not in every discouraging manner. And it is because I know it’s not the best of what I wanted to present as a reflection of myself. Sadness, anger, hatred, self pity all comes to a halt. I don’t want to worry any more. I don’t want to think of what hurts me. At present I think the way I should have thought long back. You see, I personally feel however mature a person is take the person’s age or not he or she has got to learn something or the other new everyday and with me I think I learned it and I am recovering.
I might have all what I don’t want or what is important but no necessity but not that what I am desperately looking for. I know life never gives you all what you want, but I am sure I am not asking what I don’t deserve. I think of myself being very happy with life. It’s all in your hands, trust me. If you want to be happy think you are happy.
At moments of solitude I think of what I have done in life to be the way I am today. I realize I haven’t done anything to progress. I can’t blame the fate. It has nothing to do with my interest to work hard or learn more. If ever I had an ambition in life I feel I would have been given a better place in my family. All at the same time I cannot blame myself for not having an aim. I might sound silly but it is what has happened with me and it is true. My thoughts were very limited. I never wanted to think wide. I have always isolated myself from the community I was in just to be myself. All at the same again I know what I am just because of my strange want to analyze myself. Life has been tough and I hope it is not always going to be the same.
I might have all what I don’t want or what is important but no necessity but not that what I am desperately looking for. I know life never gives you all what you want, but I am sure I am not asking what I don’t deserve. I think of myself being very happy with life. It’s all in your hands, trust me. If you want to be happy think you are happy.
At moments of solitude I think of what I have done in life to be the way I am today. I realize I haven’t done anything to progress. I can’t blame the fate. It has nothing to do with my interest to work hard or learn more. If ever I had an ambition in life I feel I would have been given a better place in my family. All at the same time I cannot blame myself for not having an aim. I might sound silly but it is what has happened with me and it is true. My thoughts were very limited. I never wanted to think wide. I have always isolated myself from the community I was in just to be myself. All at the same again I know what I am just because of my strange want to analyze myself. Life has been tough and I hope it is not always going to be the same.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
A quick update
First of all please don’t misunderstand. I am writing no report of the weather condition of Dubai. But the weather today has been so beautiful that I can’t stop myself from typing a short note on my blog. Amazing! The Sun was no where out in the sky. It was kinda dull, as if going to rain any moment. And that reminds me of my hometown. Ok! Don’t waste time thinking. I was born in one other emirate of UAE which should be just 1 hour traveling distance from Dubai. But I consider it as my hometown where I also did my schooling. The weather there is the same. It is cloudy most of the time.
The climate is changing from summer to winter and I love winter. The words like ‘current’, ‘condition’, ‘weather update’ reminds me of the good old days I had at a radio station. When I was in 12th grade, I used to go to a radio station as a trainee. I used to do some recorded programs and the only thing that I told on air (live) was the weather condition and the gold rate. When I think of it I can’t stop laughing. Seriously!
The climate is changing from summer to winter and I love winter. The words like ‘current’, ‘condition’, ‘weather update’ reminds me of the good old days I had at a radio station. When I was in 12th grade, I used to go to a radio station as a trainee. I used to do some recorded programs and the only thing that I told on air (live) was the weather condition and the gold rate. When I think of it I can’t stop laughing. Seriously!
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Boss ho tho aisa!
I never thought I did see this day. How can he say that to me? He asked me to look for another job. Sheesh! My Bihari boss! How could he? Well this is what he told me exactly:
“You know the situation of the company. Everything is legally under control of the XYZ Authority of Dubai. And I myself don’t know what to do. I want you to start searching for better opportunities. If you start now maybe in a month or two you will definitely find a good job.”
“Sir, what have you thought for yourself?”
“I have got no idea. If I had another base I could easily put in there, but you know I am completely down. Let’s see, if we could work together in future.”
Hmmm…so that’s the situation. My life imprisonment will be announced on January 28, 2007. Well, don’t run your imagination. That’s going to be my wedding day. I just wish desperately that the company moves on for another 4 months because I am in no sound emotional state to look for a job.
“You know the situation of the company. Everything is legally under control of the XYZ Authority of Dubai. And I myself don’t know what to do. I want you to start searching for better opportunities. If you start now maybe in a month or two you will definitely find a good job.”
“Sir, what have you thought for yourself?”
“I have got no idea. If I had another base I could easily put in there, but you know I am completely down. Let’s see, if we could work together in future.”
Hmmm…so that’s the situation. My life imprisonment will be announced on January 28, 2007. Well, don’t run your imagination. That’s going to be my wedding day. I just wish desperately that the company moves on for another 4 months because I am in no sound emotional state to look for a job.
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