Where was I?

I was finding myself. I got lost somewhere. The somewhere is where I found you. I lost myself there again.

I always try to do something for myself and end up doing something to make you happy.

I always try to say what I want and end up listening to what you want from me.

I always lose myself whenever you come in my way. So one day I ran away and never looked back. Months later when I thought I should find myself again, there you are! In middle of so many lost thoughts, I found you again and lost myself again.

Once, twice and don't know how many more times.

Dubai

The weather is back. Winter. It's cold and cloudy.

It might just rain and I might just start....writing...

Series: Moods-3

My heart alone knows.....

Series: Moods-2

I see a lonely future, but I hesitate to step back.

Maybe I should just take a step ahead, from the roof top of a 26 storey building.

Everyday

Where am I?

From here I can see the sky and the sea in the same frame. I can see the two meeting at some point.

What time is it?

And now I can see an orange sun melting into that point.

What happens?

I have missed a few months of posting here. It wasn't what I expected from myself when I started off blogging. I have no excuses to fill up in here but at the same time I don't what it is.

It's not at all like brushing your teeth every morning. To do what you want and which is out of your routine needs a lot of determination. Yes, we all know.

So when you are distracted from little goals in life, I am wondering what happens to the determination you stocked up for the purpose(s)?

Reason

My tears don't have a reason. They just flow and flow like there is no tomorrow. I try and hold back a few but they are adamant and make their way.

The pain...I don't know what it is. And when I don't know the reason, the helplessness makes the tears flow more.

Like there is no tomorrow but just today.