Series: Moods-3

My heart alone knows.....

Series: Moods-2

I see a lonely future, but I hesitate to step back.

Maybe I should just take a step ahead, from the roof top of a 26 storey building.

Everyday

Where am I?

From here I can see the sky and the sea in the same frame. I can see the two meeting at some point.

What time is it?

And now I can see an orange sun melting into that point.

What happens?

I have missed a few months of posting here. It wasn't what I expected from myself when I started off blogging. I have no excuses to fill up in here but at the same time I don't what it is.

It's not at all like brushing your teeth every morning. To do what you want and which is out of your routine needs a lot of determination. Yes, we all know.

So when you are distracted from little goals in life, I am wondering what happens to the determination you stocked up for the purpose(s)?

Reason

My tears don't have a reason. They just flow and flow like there is no tomorrow. I try and hold back a few but they are adamant and make their way.

The pain...I don't know what it is. And when I don't know the reason, the helplessness makes the tears flow more.

Like there is no tomorrow but just today.

A loner

loner |ˈlōnər|nouna person who prefers not to associate with others.

You left me alone...

...to find out if I would miss you? Or to see if I would cry? Or to laugh at my broken wings? Or to hurt my healing wounds? Or was it to kill the lover in me? Tell me.

Why was there even a doubt, when it was apparent that I am the lover among us and not you and that I will no doubt miss you and cry a river and fly no more and bleed till I fall weak but that was not enough and you wanted to kill the lover in me for your what ever selfish reason.

And I don’t know yet if the lover has died.